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Tuesday, December 2, 2014

• Reintroduce Yourself •


It has been absolutely ages since I've sat down and written to any of you. Blogging was something I used to love doing, it was so nice to have somewhere to go and write out my little thoughts and ideas and document my life for myself and my readers. It was something that carried me through hard times in Austria and moved with me back to California. I met great people through this little chapter of my life and I truly did love having a voice where I could speaking freely and be myself on my own little corner of the internet. 2014 has been one beautiful, all consuming period of personal growth and looking back now I find myself recalling a year where I grew into myself. I grew to become the person I have always known I could be and now can love and cherish with all the depths that I deserve. 

I want to start blogging again and to do so I feel as though I want to acknowledge what drove me away and what's happened since and now how I would like to represent myself, being back. I started blogging at a very lonely time of my life where finding a group of people who cared about silly things like makeup and skincare masks was the most refreshing light to my days. It was nice being part of something and watching others present these brilliant ideas and show their stories and knowledge on these self-made sites was enthralling. Gaining readers was so significant and feeling heard was simply captivating. I was captivated with the blogging world and I, like so many, became impatient and wanted all of the benefits without giving up the time. Working in public relations in my past, the social networking scene was something that was easy for me and I slowly found myself working my blog as if it was a job where I needed to gain followers for this brand, my brand. I didn't look at it anymore as something I did for the sheer fun of it and I began only seeing the numbers and not the people behind them. I started living a life outside of my blog, working full time, juggling school and even beauty products and makeup began to upset me. I lost interest and although I've still browsed blogs and read posts, I erased myself from this community. 

I wanted to come back and write, write to talk about things I'd found to like or experiences I had but I always questioned if it was worth it; if anyone was really reading my things or if they were just playing the numbers game like I was. It sounds so silly trying to put all this into words but I just didn't want to blog to be like all the other blogs I was constantly comparing myself to. I didn't want my voice to keep sounding like everyone else's. So here I am now, missing this blog, this voice and scared to open up to it again. But I need something that's just mine, I need my corner back that makes me happy and I need to allow myself to make time for this again. I'm sorry it's taken so long and I know a lot has changed; I've changed but I hope we can all find a way to know each other again. So for now, I'd just like to say. 

Hi, my name is Stefanie and I am casuallly awkward. 
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13 comments:

  1. Yay so glad to have you back & I cannot wait to see what you'll bring to your blog :) Also I'm casuallly awkward as well <3

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    1. Awh Alexandra! I'm so glad you commented, thank you so much for all the support and just know you're one of my favourite bloggers and such a great friend.

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  2. It's so lovely to see you back again! xo

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    1. Thank you so much Jennie, love that you're still following and still so active with your amazing blog

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  3. Welcome back to the blogging world! Blogging is so much more fun when you don't care toooo much about the numbers :)

    The Velvet Black // UK Style, Beauty Blog

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    1. Thank you so so much and I completely agree (:

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  4. Brand new to blogging this year and so pleased to be involved with such an amazing and supportive community, welcome back and thank you for sending along your link through bbloggers chat!

    Hannah (Granite City Girl)

    http://granitecitygirlblog.blogspot.co.uk/

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    1. welcome to the blogging community Hannah x

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  5. I get where you're coming from, I've been taking blogging more seriously over the past month and I can get kind of consumed with the numbers. I am happy they are improving but I know I need to focus on my content and blogging about things that I'm passionate about. Anyway welcome back to the blogging world. Hope you find your blogging voice again.

    http://insidesai.blogspot.co.uk/

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  6. Welcome back girl! Deep, totally know what you mean xx

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  7. Georgina HattonWoodsDecember 22, 2014 at 3:05 AM

    I've just done something similar, I deleted everything and have started again. I began churning out content I wasnt happy with and being inconsistant so am now trying to rebrand myself with something I am much more comfortable with!

    Brunette in Louboutins

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  8. Welcome back! :-)

    Lacey of DDoL // dailydoseoflacey.blogspot.com

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