Hey girlies, I'm sorry I really haven't been around lately. I've been actually going through a rough time and also have been working everyday, waiting in anticipation for my big trip to California. If you didn't know, I actually lived in California pretty much my whole life but about a year and a half ago, I decided with my naive 17 years of life to pack up and move to Europe. I decided to come live in Austria, where I was born and I have to admit these past months have been such a learning experience and a true challenge. It really isn't easy moving away, especially when it is to a foreign country where basically no one speaks English. I've been homesick basically from day one and now I'm finally getting the chance to go back home. I have to admit, my decision to go back home is very bittersweet. When you move away sometimes you leave and you close doors to a part of your life you don't ever really think of going back to. People forget you and people move on and you really have to learn that life is not going to be nice to you all the time. I have gotten to the point where I'm able to remember the good times I had with so many people and I appreciate what it was. However, now I'm going back and it's so scary. It's so frightening to see the place you grow up change and become something that is foreign to you. I'm pretty worried that this trip will in the end break my heart and having to say goodbye again to everyone I love is going to be incredibly incredibly challenging. Not to mention I do suffer from really intense anxiety and lately it has been so bad I can't even function. I haven't been sleeping well and I just have been really nervous and afraid of all that is to come. My flight is on January 28th and I will be in California until February 28th. So that's just a few more days really to prepare and try to somehow calm my nerves.
Where do you come in? Well. I need your help! I am definitely looking forward to doing some extreme shopping in America. Where I live now doesn't really stock many products and the style and everything is completely different so I'm basically going to stock up for the next year on fashion and makeup. I've been making up lists of things I would like to pick up or try or just see in general and I was actually thinking maybe some of you have some suggestions. What are your favorite beauty products that you own? What drugstore makeup do I need to pick up? What should I buy from Sephora or Mac or Ulta? I'm in desperate need ladies and I would love to hear some suggestions. Also, the fact that dollars are quite a lot less than euro, I will be doing some amazing bargain shopping so I'm totally pumped for that.
I'm just trying really hard to look at the positives and get through this alone, it is hard being alone and having to deal with this to be completely honest and it's scary and sometimes everyone could use a friend. If you guys have any helpful tips on traveling or anxiety or family issues, please please please comment down bellow and help me out. Also, comment down bellow any beauty products I should pick up or add your links to some posts you recommend I check out before my trip. I will still be blogging through February and it will be more lifestyle oriented for a while but I hope you guys don't mind that. The blogging community is kinda my only friend right now and I need your help sometimes.
I hope you're all well and having a nice Friday. Chin up everyone, we've gotta push through this journey called life.